(If you should find a deep sadness...
I wish that you would share it with me...
I think that I could do anything for your smile...
My precious treasure...)
I've watched you
Everyday of my life....
Watching.....
And I longed so much to be there for you
Because I knew, behind that smile
Lied a deep sadness no one else could see
You thought no one knew
But I watched you
As you cried in that crypt
Cried to pour forth your grief and guit
You would take no comfort
And hid behind a mask of smiles
It was painful for me to see this
I knew what would be your end
I never thought of you as a monster
I thought of you as something precious
You never understood
You never noticed
How much I wanted to comfort you
"A monster..." you said.
"I am a monster, and this is a mark of my sin."
How was I to explain, that it wasn't your fault at all?
It was revenge that you lived for
Even when you said that revenge only left a hollow feeling
Hypocrite!
I laughed bitterly at that and shook my head sadly
You never practiced what you preached
But who am I to stop you?
I could only stand to one side
Helplessly watching as you tried so hard to achieve your goal
"What would you get?" I whispered
"What would you feel after you get what you want?
Please stop.... It's not what I want..."
You didn't listen to me
And pushed on
Day by day
I was the witness to all you did
I sensed your pain, your sorrow, your guilt
Even behind the mask you always wear
I kept it all in my memories
So that I would never forget you
Ever
Then...
Came the time
I watched you fight him
Fueled with rage and vengance
I watched you go higher above the clouds
And then I saw you fall
No one knows for sure what happened
But I know...
I'll never see you again
And now...
You are gone
Gone, just like a leaf in the autumn breeze
Gone, without a trace
Just like that
I can't do anything but cry
Cry, then lift up my head and face the future bravely
The emptiness I feel will fade with time
But my memories will keep
I will always rmember you as the man you are
As the angel you are, not a monster
And all that's left as testimonial to these sweet times
Is a small cross with a silver chain
I found lying in my room
It lies over my neck now, resting on my skin
As proof that I've met and known
You
Abel Nightroad
I hope to see you again someday
And relieve all those memories we had together
Because....
You are my brother, and I love you
A person will fade with time
But memories are hard to get rid of
Memories keep for ages
Memories last for centuries
You will always live on in my heart, my dear, sweet brother
And as I bow my head and weep for the last time
I hear your voice drifting in the wind to me
Warm, soft and gentle,
Saying,
"Please don't cry... I am your friend... I am on your side... I will be with you..."
~ Thursday, 1 March 2007, 1:25pm~
~Dedicated to Abel Nightroad~
~Stephanie~
(Also dedicated to Sunao Yoshida. Rest in peace, may God watch over you)
I wish that you would share it with me...
I think that I could do anything for your smile...
My precious treasure...)
I've watched you
Everyday of my life....
Watching.....
And I longed so much to be there for you
Because I knew, behind that smile
Lied a deep sadness no one else could see
You thought no one knew
But I watched you
As you cried in that crypt
Cried to pour forth your grief and guit
You would take no comfort
And hid behind a mask of smiles
It was painful for me to see this
I knew what would be your end
I never thought of you as a monster
I thought of you as something precious
You never understood
You never noticed
How much I wanted to comfort you
"A monster..." you said.
"I am a monster, and this is a mark of my sin."
How was I to explain, that it wasn't your fault at all?
It was revenge that you lived for
Even when you said that revenge only left a hollow feeling
Hypocrite!
I laughed bitterly at that and shook my head sadly
You never practiced what you preached
But who am I to stop you?
I could only stand to one side
Helplessly watching as you tried so hard to achieve your goal
"What would you get?" I whispered
"What would you feel after you get what you want?
Please stop.... It's not what I want..."
You didn't listen to me
And pushed on
Day by day
I was the witness to all you did
I sensed your pain, your sorrow, your guilt
Even behind the mask you always wear
I kept it all in my memories
So that I would never forget you
Ever
Then...
Came the time
I watched you fight him
Fueled with rage and vengance
I watched you go higher above the clouds
And then I saw you fall
No one knows for sure what happened
But I know...
I'll never see you again
And now...
You are gone
Gone, just like a leaf in the autumn breeze
Gone, without a trace
Just like that
I can't do anything but cry
Cry, then lift up my head and face the future bravely
The emptiness I feel will fade with time
But my memories will keep
I will always rmember you as the man you are
As the angel you are, not a monster
And all that's left as testimonial to these sweet times
Is a small cross with a silver chain
I found lying in my room
It lies over my neck now, resting on my skin
As proof that I've met and known
You
Abel Nightroad
I hope to see you again someday
And relieve all those memories we had together
Because....
You are my brother, and I love you
A person will fade with time
But memories are hard to get rid of
Memories keep for ages
Memories last for centuries
You will always live on in my heart, my dear, sweet brother
And as I bow my head and weep for the last time
I hear your voice drifting in the wind to me
Warm, soft and gentle,
Saying,
"Please don't cry... I am your friend... I am on your side... I will be with you..."
~Dedicated to Abel Nightroad~
~Stephanie~
(Also dedicated to Sunao Yoshida. Rest in peace, may God watch over you)
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